SengaL is my TruE kaler...

aku mmg sengal
yer..
tesangat sengal tahap yg dah tade tahap laa..(nmpak x? level sengal aku?)
mane x..
x sume hamba Allah kt Mesia ni d beri pluang ke 2 untk redeem
sgla kkurangan or ke-abestos-an diri..

org laen, blaja form 4

taun depan nye naik form 5

taun selepas taun depan pulak habes skewl...

aku, balaja form 4
taun depan nye naik form 5
taun selepas taun depan pulak form 5,,lg..
pelik kan?! tade pelik2 nye..
dah stgah taon x dtg skolah..
kua masok kua masok spital
Putrajaya,Ampang ,,KPJ Semban..
sume aku redah..
akhirnye...x b'akhir2 pown!
taon ni..kesah yg same...saket..saket..saket

(aku tau ader hati2 dengki yg ckp SAKET KER?!)

fyi,,saket ati n saket pale leh wat saket terok gak k..

korang nye pasal gak laa!

umo da tua2 tp prgai cam dak kechik..

elok..

^^^pekataan2 d atas ku dedicate kan untk yg bekenaan je yer..

yg laen sume ak syg.. ;)

skewl baru,
environment baru..
member2 baru-junior aku btw..
uniform baru,,tade biru2 lg..
tade jaga pagar amek name ke hape..
instead skarg aku yg ske dtg lmbat..
helo,,bas payah k.. :(

harapan still same

cita2 maseh yg tu juga

dugaan,,problem...btambah2 ade..

yg x same2 1 jer..

kekuatan...untk redah sume nih

ak tanak citer bnyak pasal mende2 yg buat aku
smpi ke tahap nih..
ckup buat ak kate..
ak t'duduk,,t'sungkur..pedih sgt..
aku tlalu muda..
untk smua nih..
cuma hikmah nye...
aku,,dpat pikir mluas...n mtured compared 2 my fellows fwens..besties..

ak mmg sengal
yer...
sengal sangat sbab aku jatoh,aku bgun n aku jatoh lg.
biler nk bangon lg?
wallahuallam...

aku..kene ngadap buku...bukan PC
xam..xam..xammmm..hins!
buku kate mari,,PC kate
bLAH LA..ASEK2 MUKE KO JER..
tp nape agaknye degil semcm jari jemari ni??
bila Hati dah stuck...
jiwa jadi longlai...
smgat...ilang..
dan ak bkal saksikan tayangan hebat aksi2 kene BASOH,,CUCI n SENTAL ngan
abah biler rsult kua nnt..
n jaoh d plusok lain,,ak sure,,
mereka akn ketawa...
KAU TU LEMBIK!
em kuat sgt ker tukang ckap tuu?
bukan salah sp2...
tp soal nye,,KNAPE?
KNAPE msti bliau2 m'interupt kefokusan aku..?!
menci...sgt....sgt..

She's AnYwhere but HeRe

CoNfEsSioN oF A BrOken HearT



for the past 2 years i bet this is it..
PUNCAK KEGAGALAN...
in my life..
its juz begin, about 2 end or will keep on goin'..?
failure
shutdown
blackout,,
been there done that!

From almost a somebody to a NOBODY
its like im living in water,,drowning in hours..minutes..
they passed by me bt im still there..wat am i?!
here doesnt make any better too
Fogs does blurs me,, and im gasping for helps so dat i can breathe again..

I consider myself destroyed
and losing pieces of me..
i've become so numb
tired of hoping, trying, and losing chances..
watching those doors of things i've been dreaming of,,
shut rite in front of my face..

Question is..
where did i go wrong?

i remember laz tyme
im enjoying myself reading books about sciences n smart stuff'
standing proud n smiling 2 myself coz im always score high
Bernoulli's principle
Newton's Law
Shih Huang Ti or the Renaissance..
memorizes dem never a burden


though,,dat was so yesterday..

i find it hard 2 blieve
dat me,, gone stupid!
i dun remember those things anymore..
and im bringing down the pictures of women pilots on my wall
coz i guess formulae n concepts are not written in my destiny

if u ask me
girl y u sound so down
well, lets trade shoes
u'll see wat its like to be me
the hardest tings i had swallow
finding shoulder 2 cry on
yet i had none dat truly meant for me

i kept asking myself
who wld i ask 2 hold my hands n guide me tru the line?
who wld watch me n pull me b4 i cross the line?
who gonna hold me down when i start 2 fall apart?
i get notink bt silent..
i have 2 walk dis streets by myself and finding truth beneath
mistakes..

i reach th crest of dis mountain
i dunno wat will wait for me when i come down
but im no afraid..coz dis is LIFE
Lord, He gave me crossroads, puzzles n clues
so i must stop asking Him WHY
and cntinue the game
until i come to the end..

dun mind wat i said..
coz these are
THE CONFESSION OF A BROKEN HEART...

BiLa Hati BeRubaH pEriSa..

Nak d sebot satu citer.. ak ngan dier sgt mesra..rapat...idop sebumbung..tido sekatil...
ak snang sgt ngan dier..sbab dier x pnah sakit kan hati aku...
pendek kate,,aku sayang kat dier..

Pertalian antara aku ngan dier,,agak uniQue.. mcm2 istilah boleh guna,, Double bond, covalent bond,,Jamez Bond?? Erk,,tidak..tidak..bukan Bond tu..
kesah laa ape pown,,aku ngan dier xpat dipisahkan.. sbab dier,,aku,, klua dr rahim insan mulia yg same..
pendek kate,,air yg d cincang xkan tebelah 2..?

Bulan ngan Bintang,,saksi sgla nye..
Langit yg redup & tenang jd Wolpaper
segala kesah2 duka,luka,payau,pait yg kami kongsi besame same..
Pendek kate,,sonok..!

Slamer aku idop d temani dier..
kami x pnah bkire..
xpnah caci maki..
x pnah benci m'benci..
Hari2 bhgia ngan cara kami sendri..
pendek kate kami mmg gile2..

Bila aku susah, dier tlg..
bila aku sedeyh..dier kasi kate2 smgt..
bila aku kene mrh ke hape,,dier bck up..
pendek kate,,dier laa #1 supporter..

Tp aku ngan dier idop lam reality.
siape yg x lpas drp d lambung2 ktentuan &dugaan Illahi?!

Dtg nye s'org insan bname suami dlm idop dier..
d kurniakan pulak sorg baby..
HATI MULA BRUBAH PERISA..
kalu dulu mmnjang Strawbery,,
yg manis, yg indah yg myegarkan..
tp skarg,,da ghase cam durian..
yg bduri, yg busuk..yg myakitkan..

Tegamak dier mlupakan smua saat gembira
Ak d musuhi..d caci.. d lemparkan kate2 kesat..
(HALO..len kali ko siasat A-Z dlu laa kot ye pown..)
kerana kata
kerana syak wasangka
kerana hasotan iblis durjana
ak ngan dier..putus sgla2 nye..
pendek kate putus buat slame nye..!

" x perlu d sibuk dgn dengki yg mnjeguk krn ia kerap kali m'gusar rasa,, dan tlah tua usia dnia..Munculnya stiap cabaran yg m'datang..brsama kekangan yg brtandang,, adalah mutiara pelajaran yg m'matangkan usia..."

Sampai saat nye,,bila trbuka hijab dpn mate (lirik lgu Rabbani ni ,,hahak),,
aku yakin,,ko akn lebeh mngerti..dan mmahami..
Siapa AKU YANG KAU BENCI...